Friday, October 23, 2009

Luahan rasa

Dikala ini ..jauh dilubuk hati..aku sgt2 risau..mcm2 bermain dlm kepala ni..habis ke master aku ni?klu x abis cmna pun mmg kena blk mesia bln 3..sponsorship dah abis..genap 2 tahun da..apa plak tindakan JPA?..extend dgn duit sendiri? oh tidak...can't afford that...ish malunya klu x abis..oh no..

5 months to go..still not enough data to write..I'm seriously blocked...sesungguhnya background aku sblm ini amat tidak mmbantu dlm project yg aku tgh buat ni..nuclear sciences vers organic synthesis totally out!!!the worst thing is no feel anymore nak buat lab...susah giler ku rasa..



salah ke keputusan aku utk dtg ke Aus ni ...terima nak buat project ni dulu..I've no choice before..lain dirancang, lain yg dpt. peluang utk belajar bukan dtg selalu..once dah dpt scholarship klu tak pergi..lain kali nak minta mesti susah. Kalau tak p belajar..kang mmber2 lain sumer belajar..dpt naik pangkat?aku nganga gigit jari...duk la takat tu smpai bila2...ada je seniour aku yg x smbung belajar.apala yg dia pk agaknya?cukup je la dgn apa yg dia dapat tu kut...ehm..aku tak bersyukur dgn apa yg aku ada ke?aku ikut2 org ke?ehm..bila aku citer sumer ni kat mamat Oz sorg ni..dia tanya aku...what is important in life?spontan aku jawab:happiness..then dia senyum..apa maksud dia?Am I lost the sense of happiness now?aaaaaaaaaa...

Ya Allah ..I'm struggling...tabahkan la hamba mu yg satu ini..sesungguhnya aku amat lemah dikala ini....berikanla yg terbaik utkku...kuatkan semangatku utk buat yg terbaik bg mendptkan yg terbaik dr-MU...amin..

6 comments:

  1. kalau tak silap saya, hari tu tanya jpa diorang kata boleh extend asalkan ada reason and notice 3 bulan.. so dont worry la.. kalau terpaksa extend, just bagitau jpa.. diorang akan cover...

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  2. Mas hang biar btul...aku dah extend 6 blnla haritu..jd genap 24 bln..sblm ni offer 18 bln je.
    n dlm surat approval JPA, dorg dah kata tiada lagi sebarang perlanjutan utk puan akan dipertimbangkan...yg aku fahamla master genap 24 bln@2 thn je jpa cover...pstu dah tak da..
    -suzie-

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  3. rasanya takde perlanjutan tu bukan as a student tapi masa untuk apply to be accepted kan? Tak pasti la, tapi hari tu Yaser ada cakap kat kitorang (saya dan lida) yang kalau ada problem, jangan lari just bagitau ahead 3 bulan sebab dia kata dah banyak kes student just diam je kalau ada problem.. JPA hantar student ke oversea, diorang nak kita complete the degree... so kalau ada problem consult diorang.. lagipun kita sign contract 4 tahun kan.. So, ok.. Apapun try consult jpa la.. Tapi kena awal.. yg jadi problem bila jpa dah nak close account baru bagitau..

    So, just call jpa ok.

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  4. ada kes mmber kat USAla..nak siapkan dissertation..dia dpt 3bln extra slpas genap 24 bln...3bln tu dah x de dah scholarship..gaji je jln..cntract 4 thn tu ialah cntract kita bond dgn JPA lepas abis klu x silap..anyway Mas..tq.and I'll consult with them..but klu blh mmg x nak dah duk sini lg...schooling fee anak mahal sgt..

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  5. Salam suzi, lain macam je keluhan tu, that bad ke? Tak boleh consult dengan supervisor or coursemate ke for guidance and reference? Mesti ade jalannya kan...studying overseas ni memang lain, kita kena banyak refer and do research on our own even masa degree pun...some Univs open discussion classess handled by seniors etc. That's why their libraries are open till after hours sometimes until 10pm not like in M'sia only during office hours, and manage by students and get paid for extra income...bukan nak takut kan suzi tapi rasanya dasar JPA tak berubah, scholarship given only for the period of studying, afer that they allow extension of period to finish up study but fees are on our own..masa akak study dulu pun ade senior yang buat masters JPA apply the same principle...so they work in campus to sustain their fees...keje luar tak berani takut kena tangkap cos visa is only for studying not working...Anyway, as your friend said try consulting with JPA, kut2 your case is a special and different one. No harm trying before it is too late. Happy studying, k!

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  6. salam suzi...senyap je..lama tak update fp, bz ke?...hw's study, hopefully your yr will power is still going strong...

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